Big Dreams

But Mousie, thou are no thy-lane,
In proving foresight may be vain:
The best laid schemes o' Mice an' Men,
Gang aft agley,
An' lea'e us nought but grief an' pain,
For promis'd joy!

~Robert Burns, 'To a Mouse'

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My days of fasting during Ramadan haven't been too bad so far because work has been keeping me busy. I come home with a couple hours until it's time to eat and either take a nap if I'm tired or go ahead and prepare food. I've been doing pretty well. Well, until about the last 15 minutes.

That's when my hunger takes completely over and I go into fantasy mode. I start thinking about all the food and drinks I'm going to partake of the minute my fast is finished. Sometimes I'll go as far as to open each cabinet and the fridge to scope out the things I can have once I am ready to go. I don't know what possess me to do this, but I'm in full plan mode and have a method to what I think I can eat.

It's a weird switch and I wonder if other people who are hungry and can't eat do this? It's kind of like when I was a kid and I went through the Christmas wish list book for a department store and picked all the toys I was going to get not thinking about the price.

Of course, when the time to break my fast, I do end up eating only what I have prepared and that fills me just fine.

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"Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you, that you may learn self-restraint. "

Quran 2:183

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Kelly
American Islamic Fellowship
blog@americanislamicfellowship.com